Today I was reflecting on a conversation that I had with a very good friend of mine about living complacent lives. We talked about how we need to search for purpose and meaning in our lives that does not stagnate with being content and comfortable, but is full of adventure and uncertainty in where the future will lead us. I took a good look at my own life and saw how easily I fall into these patterns of finding what is easy for me and settling in that, because I have a fear that I might fail or not be ready for challenges. And then looking deeper into this attitude I fall into, it shows in myself, a lack of faith in the gifts that God has blessed me with, and also a lack of faith in God's ability to pull me through situations that seem too far beyond my own capabilities.
I know in my heart that I should be able to step out of my comfort zone and jump head-on into whatever is placed in front of me and trust that God's provision will not fail, but there is something that holds me back. I want to say that I can be joyful in having uncertainty in my future, and not being insured success in my work, but I fear that lack lack of knowledge and control that I have in my life.
With that fear, the only place I can turn to is God and know that despite what I don't not know or control, that he knows it all and will provide me with what is best to bring his kingdom here on earth. And even though I am uncertain with what I will have in this world, I know that I will have an eternal future, and that I need to live every day that I have left in this world seeking not a life of complacency, but of a life of fullness found faithfulness.
I know in my heart that I should be able to step out of my comfort zone and jump head-on into whatever is placed in front of me and trust that God's provision will not fail, but there is something that holds me back. I want to say that I can be joyful in having uncertainty in my future, and not being insured success in my work, but I fear that lack lack of knowledge and control that I have in my life.
With that fear, the only place I can turn to is God and know that despite what I don't not know or control, that he knows it all and will provide me with what is best to bring his kingdom here on earth. And even though I am uncertain with what I will have in this world, I know that I will have an eternal future, and that I need to live every day that I have left in this world seeking not a life of complacency, but of a life of fullness found faithfulness.
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since i have been home i have been sending a lot of time with my wise friend john brazell. yesterday we were discussing what it means to want to remain like a child. John said that children are all about not caring about the world. he pointed out that they learn strictly by trial and error. As we grow older we stop doing his. But what if we didnt?? when we stop going through that process, it causes us to stop trying things because we are scared. We must strive to continue to have faith like children because of this and attempt things for Christ with this outlook on life. Love ya JIMbo...
John is so smart.
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